Where's humanity?

JOSEPH KONY

The name JOSEPH is so nice, such a pity that that guy on top have the same name. JOSEPH KONY really disgusted me a lot. I strongly urge all people to watch this video --> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4MnpzG5Sqc. This video was posted on the 5/3/12 and had already hit over 65 million views.

Cassan and I even thought of buying the action kit to support this campaign. Was also invited by my friend to join the KONY 2012 NIGHT SWEEP IN SINGAPORE on the 20/4/12 to paste poster all over Singapore. If this event is going on, I will be participating :)

Seriously, because this guy need to be stopped. Cant imagine if my relative or family members was being kidnapped by him. If that happens, I think I might go crazy. SO, please do help!

Enough of looking at the disgusting face. Next, JEANETTE AW!

Photo taken by 'Genelle''

YES! Jeanette visited our school on the 7/3/11! She is totally gorgeous! Although we were told that only lower secondary could listen to the talk, but in the end, most of the upper secondary students went to listen to the talk too!

Didn't have the intention to buy her book in the first place, but after reading the first few pages, i couldn't resist the temptation but to borrow money from my friend to buy it. From what she said, her book consist from A-Z. And currently, i am only at C! So, there is still a long way to go.

People who bought her book even got her signature signed on the spot! AM TOTALLY A FAN OF HERS! The sad thing is we cant take photo with her :( I really envy that guy that stood up and hug her, its like so GOOD? But I heard that Ms Josephine Tan was quite angry over this matter, hmmmmm.

BUT WHO CARES RIGHT? I DON'T. :)
So, do support the campaign to bring JOSEPH KONY down!

WE WILL NOT STOP!

Tell me, who is perfect?

Photo taken by 'Nicholas Ma'

Hello people, am feeling VERY upset today. And i mean really.

So, today is the cross country for our school. I DIDN'T RUN, I didn't because I don't have the motivation to. I did not have the confidence to top 10 for the B division girls. Not that I want the trophy, not that I want the badge but if I want to run, I will need to reach my target. And since I think that i will not be able to make it, I backed out.

COWARD.

Yes, I am a coward. And because I did not run, I found out a alot of things about myself. And I mean ALOT. many, many, many, many.

Before I elaborate about what happened today, I sincerely apologise to all my Jupiter mates for not RUNNING, especially to Insyirah and another girl who tried to talk me into running. I failed all of you as the Vice-Captain.

I will pay back to all of you in sports day, I swear I will put in my UTMOST effort.

I hate myself. YES I DO.

Through today, I talked to people who hated me, I talked to people who was hated about others, I talked to people and shared my experience.

Lets start from the first one, PEOPLE WHO HATED ME.

For people in class, I guess I am the typical person who most people will hate and dislike. Simply because I am too BOSSY. I apologise for that, I really didn't realised that one simple action from me like ''being happy over my results'' will bring discomfort for others. That was last year, when I was living in an environment where I could express myself more clearly. I am sorry, I know I am irritating, I know I am demanding. I am sorry. When I switched class, part of me was glad too, at least now, till now, no one said that of me yet.

For people in SLB, I guess I am not a worthy leader for all of you to follow and listen to. I am sorry too, because the position that I am holding on to now, is a killer bee. I had to listen to the teachers and be strict with all of you. I didn't want it at all too, just because my seniors and teachers think that I can do it, it doesn't mean that I can. I AM JUST DOING MY JOB, SO PLEASE DON'T HATE ME OKAY?

Next, I talked to this cute girl whose name I mixed up about my feelings. Surprisingly, she shared something similar to mine. She was being 'SHOOT' before too. Yes, I am sure she didn't like it too. I mean, who like it when you are being criticized by your friends? not one, but more then that? I talked and shared about my feelings with her until the end of Cross-Country, I remembered sharing with her about how my knee cap got dislocated. But this dislocation of bone really changed my sports life afterwards, shall share about what had happened next time.

Perhaps is because of all the memories that I thought of today that made me upset, but I am not gonna care too much about it now. Am feeling really really tired.

Last thing, I want to share a story about this four girls who was in a clique called ''NO.1 GIRLFRIEND''

This four girls met when they was in sec 1, they went into the same school and was in the same class. Through one outing, the union of NO.1 GIRLFRIEND was formed. All four of them sticked together practically everywhere they go in school. Although they do quarrel at times, the conflict will still eventually be settled by some mediation. When they went to sec 3, one of them was separated. she went to another class. And whenn they went to sec 4, another one left the class. And that's when everybody started to drift apart. And today, to me, this clique is OFFICIALLY NO MORE.

This is what I feel, it might not be agreed by all. Like I said, this group consist of 4 people. The decision DO NOT lie on one person's opinion.

I am actually very sick and tired of keeping up with everything , holding on to something which seemed like it will never work again. So, should it be a celebrating for all four of them ? they are finally freed from all the burden.

That's all I gonna say today, gonna blog about JOSEPH KONY and JEANETTE AW tmr.

Friendship.

you are my friend for a lifetime.

I remembered that time when I quarrelled with Yusuf. Well, not exactly quarrelled, it just ignoring each other for more than half a year? Luckily our friendship was salvaged during the trip to Sabah - one of the most enriching trip that I have been to. Should pray hard that our friendship maintain longer :)

I think that courage is needed to tell someone about how you actually feel about him or her, especially when the both of you drifted off for quite a long time. I did recently and it actually feels quite good to understand what the opposite is thinking about. And I would like to quote this sentence from what that person told me: "If i have a thousand reasons to hate you, then i have one million reasons to not hate you." Just by this simple sentence, I could feel the sincerity.

I am too, trying my best to salvage this friendship. And it seems that things are proceeding quite well now. So, I shall let nature to take its course. Didn't realised that it is the 29Th of February tomorrow until Callista mentioned about it, once in every 4 years. Gonna wish Bisheng happy birthday tomorrow :)

Last thing, I will try to listen to Serene and ignore you for a moment. Just for a moment, because you are not worth my time. HATE all you want, SAY all you want, HIDE all you want. I have nothing to lose either, because you are just a pathetic lame little girl.

TATA.

Don't judge a book by it's cover.

Hi peeps, had fun with Arief and gang yesterday before feeling a little sick in the evening.
anyways, today is Arief's bday. so,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARIEF! :)

Caught up a lot with Jean yesterday and learnt even more about not judging someone by it's
cover. No matter how decent or crook the person looks like, do not judge him or her, because when you see his true self in the end, you will get a shock out of your life.

I DID YESTERDAY.

shall not elaborate more about what happened but talk about something similar.

GIRLS. Is this girl a CHIO BU?

No, she isn't. For a normal person, once we see her, we will be like shoving her around and not wanting to be friends with her just for the fact that she looks ugly. That is what everybody do, in real life, people only want to hang out with what they call chio bu and not this one on top. Never will I believe that in love, people have motive. They have some very bad desire that might traumatized the other party, EWWW. I AM SERIOUSLY DISGUSTED BY THAT PERSON.

What about this?
The famous girl that everyone wants to hang out with. Simply with some make-up, coloured contacts, nice clothing, long hair and jewelry, she looks gorgeous. with thousands of followers on twitter and at least a thousand like on every photo she posted on Facebook.

WHAT IF, she removed her make up?
WHAT IF, she is wear a baggy old shirt and pants?
WHAT IF, she take out her contact lenses?
WHAT IF, she doesn't have long hair?

GUYS out there should seriously stop looking at girls only at the surface. you all should start to know them and then gratefully thank god for giving you such a good friend. And especially to those people with girlfriends, please do not treat them like your toy. Don't dump them after you finished toying with their feelings, don't like them just because they are pretty, don't like them just because they dress nice, don't like them just because they have the figure of an hour glass.

LIKE THEM because you really like them,
LIKE THEM because you like her heart,
LIKE THEM because of her character.

If you really don't love her sincerely, tell her now. If she threatened to do something foolish, let her do it, it will end eventually.

ACTIONS SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS.

We are just serving, not bootlicking.

''Tell me, who likes being called a 'dog' of the school?''

This sentence up here is twitted by the vice president of student council board, and I absolutely agree with it.

WE, the student councillors are not the dogs of teachers. For your information, we do help the student welfare too. I did not join in the debate with Mr Yang today. Reason was I left immediately after the meeting to the council room, I dont even know if the debate was still going on in the first place.

Today's meeting was about the new groups for internal/external projects. I am asked to help out in the internal project. Actually I feel that it was quite unfair fo us, the sec 4s to guide the sec 3s. We are stepping down this year and I still dont feel my burden being lifted. Maybe it was me, I gave up persuading Mr Yang to let us off. HAI, nevermind.

Recess was where trouble arised.

I went to check if the councillors was okay and when I reach the third floor, Sherene told me that the girls from 4/4 is finding trouble. I went in to the classroom and reminded them that they are not suppose to stay in the class room. And there is this fat girl who talked back to me in this very rude manner. I G O T P I S S E D. not as if I shouted in her face to chase her out right?! I literally stomped out of the classroom. After a few seconds, three of them came out and the thinner one scanned Sherene and told me to take care of my councillors. WTF? she is the one finding trouble -_-

Sherene looked shocked and I shouted, BASTARD SIA THEM. wth, they thought they got back up then act like one big shit. But the fact is that they are just one SMALL FLY.

And just now, when I was on my way home, I saw the FAT one. What is she without her friends? she dont even dare to look at me like how she did in the classroom earlier on. what to describe?

HUM JI?

Maybe someday we should get all the student leaders to help out to do the duty too. Then we will have the strength in number to block those HOOLIGANS.

GANGSTERS SO?

If i didn't, why should i even be afraid of?

Although I hate people who assume, this time, I am gonna do that.

I assume that she is talking about me. But why? if I didn't do that, why would I even think that it was me? This is why:

- I am reading her blog and there is a motivating sentence, I thought she was motivating me, which means that she read my blog before. (But now I think she was motivating herself) OPPS.

- I posted on twitter, ''updated my blog, don't ask, just read'' or something similar and after a few hours, she posted about [in short] copycats.

- And again, I indirectly respond to her without mentioning and and seems to respond back.

The thought of closing or privatising my blog did came across my mind, but after even much consideration, I decided to leave it. If I didn't do it, why should I care right? Obviously she have not been reading my previous blog posts. If i did what that went through my mind, she might think that I am feeling guilty? or maybe sorry for my own actions? HAI, WHY MAKE A FUSS?

MY CONSCIENCE IS CLEAR ;)

I can say out loud to everybody, I DIDN'T. Maybe if you are a reader of my old blog post before I deleted all my other post, you will not find that there are much changes. I still use the same highlight, RED. I still put a photo with caption below it. I still CAPS the important thing I wanted to emphasize. The only thing that is different is that I centralised my wording and I leave space between paragraphs. If you are a reader of my new blog, maybe you should scroll down my blog and read about why I do that. I too, feel that after leaving spaces between paragraphs, it makes my post easier to read. And also, because my dear friend adjusted my post space to widely, i feel that centralising will look better [of course, I am not blaming you okay! (: ]

COME ON? I am not an idiot, if I leave my post aligned to the left, the right side will look super BOTAK. of course I am not gonna let that happen. I don't want to have a BOTAK blog, who wants a BOTAK BLOG?

I just wanted to make my stand clear, people who don't like to read my blog, you can choose to not read it. But for you, if you really still feel disturb and feel that I am copying you, I can private my blog. Just throw me some hints, like tweet again? or something, anything will do. After all, I created a blog to write about my day, not really for people to read a fall in love with my writing. [I would never happen, I know. My English sucks] I could still write and vent my frustration without anyone reading it. I don't want anymore trouble, but, do keep in mind that there are millions of people blogging in this world. How much difference could a blog post be? I mean, almost every blog looks the same.

Anyway, before I end, I repeat again okay. If you want, you can drop me some hints. I am open for negotiation , I will compromise for you :) My English teacher is also the one that prompted us to start a blog and share the link with him. He shared with us his blog too, support him! http://lms.asknlearn.com/blss/Blogs/BL_PublicViewBlog.aspx?bid=89.

HINT ME!

With great powers, comes great responsibility.

Years to build, seconds to tear down.

Today is terrible.

School was fine during the first half of the day - before recess. But after recess, my day was practically ruin. Never did I expect that my actions will cause so much trouble, what I did was what a typically BOONLAYIAN would do.

Since my mood is being destroyed by this event, I shall talk about this today.
PHYSICAL EDUCATION, we did 1.6km run today. I was jogging for 1.2km before sprinting for the last 400m. This run made me sweat like hell. Mr Bong release us for recess and reminded us to change back into our uniform before end of recess. Because of the run, I don't feel hungry, so I brought a cup of sweet drink up to the class.

When I reach 4/5, I saw Jirah eating, so I asked her if I could taste. Of course, she said can. Because I brought the sweet drink up to class, because I ate that mouthful of rice, I was given a PENALTY.

MY ACTIONS RUINED MY REPUTATION.

Just because I am the president, I have to be a role model. Just because I am the president, I couldn't do what other people are doing. Just because I am the president, people hate me, they sabo me. IT MAKE SENSE THOUGH.

THEN MAYBE I SHOULD GET A FEW SECURITY TO ESCORT ME.

Because I was so LUCKY, at the moment when I put that spoonful of rice into my mouth, a teacher saw. shall not mention her name to protect her reputation, I am not as bad as her. A Indian girl complained to her that the PRESIDENT is in the class, so when she came, I was eating. HOW AWESOME is that? totally suay, she saw me eating and ASSUMED that I brought the food up. HOW IS IT POSSIBLE WHEN THERE IS A RULE THAT THE VENDOR IS NOT SUPPOSE TO SELL PACK FOOD TO STUDENTS DURING RECESS TIME?! I HATE people who assume.

I am seriously an UNLUCKY girl, because normally Me, Cassan and Serene will sit below our class and eat our food. But because our previous lesson was PE and I was so hot and needed to cool down, that's why I when up to class to slack. BUT, so heng that when I am eating Jirah's food, i got caught. so heng that the Indian girl who saw me bringing drink up didn't like me. so heng that there was a teacher for her to inform. and even more heng that that teacher is a BIG TRUMPET.

Haiss, of course, which trumpet do not make noise? She told Mr Yang LOUDLY in the staffroom. because of her ability to work as a trumpet, many others heard it too when she was informing Mr Yang. One of them is Mr Desmond i guess.

Mr Yang called, but I was changing in the toilet so I didn't pick up, He came to look for me personally and though he didn't scold me, I felt bad. I remembered exactly every single word that was coming out from his mouth. He began with, "Jiayun, I need to talk to you.'' and when I went forward, he asked ''Did you bring food up?''. I really don't know why didn't I say no, I only bring drinks. Instead, I said yes. Then he say, '' a teacher saw and complained to me, you are the president of the Student Council.'' I felt so remorse, I just stood there and looked at him. then I promised that I will not do it again.
Till here, I was already agitated. Not angry with Mr Yang, just angry, maybe with my actions. From Jirah and Cassan, I found out that it was that Indian girl who sabo-ed me. At that instance, all I wanted to do was to run to her and ask her WHY. But afraid that I might overdo, Cassan and Jirah stopped me.

When I started to clam down, it became Mdm Suziela's turn. She told me that she need to speak to me, I could also remember every single word she said to me. She left an impactful sentence on me.

'' DARLING, YOU HAVE YOUR OWN REPUTATION TO PROTECT''

tears filled my eyes, and I immediately hold back the temptation to cry. BANG, 2 times in a row. the more they don't scold, then more I tear up. Feeling even more agitated and angry at the person who sabo-ed me, I tweeted bad about her. I swear my tweets was seriously murderous, I seriously felt like killing her. Luckily Jirah calmed me and and asked me if what I did was right, and I deleted my tweets. The scary thing was, her lesson is after recess and she already heard the news. By then, I can confirmed that half of the staff knows about it.

When i finally decided to talk to that Indian girl calmly, I got a strike. 3 times in a row. I went to 4/8 for MT period, then Miss Tan told me, '' I heard about you.'' I was like, OKAY CAN? Then I went out of the class to the classroom in front of 4/8, I sat alone feeling super helpless.

I NEED SOMEONE TO HELP ME :(

I called Jirah, she told me that if those teachers are gonna judge me by one small mistake i make, then i shall ignore them, because they are not worth my sorry. I was crying and talking to her, I seriously don't know why the hell did i cry. I just cried.

I went back to 4/8 to complete my assignment, I sat at the last row at the back of the class. I needed assurances, but was given none. By the side of my eyes, my eyes glittered, but no one care. I finish my assignment ASAP and went back home. HAD NO MOOD TO GO TO CCA AT ALL.

I took super long to prepare and went to school, in the end, i reached school at around 4pm. At least Miss Tan was caring enough to know the reason of why i am so super late. She just marked my attendance and kept quiet. At CCA, I found a little bit of joy and forget a little bit off sorrow. Thanks to those cute sec 1s, they made me laugh a lot :)

After CCA end, Mr Desmond talked to me. He asked me what's SPIDER MAN'S favourite word, guess what? I said ''spider man''. Of course, that is the wrong answer. This is the correct answer,

WITH GREAT POWERS, COMES GREAT RESPONSIBILITY.

We chat for around 20-30minutes. I asked him about why must that teacher spread this news in the staffroom, and he said that she did not meant it, it just happened that is is a little bit too LOUD. Mr Desmond really did talk sense into me. I felt better after having the conversation with him. It is indeed that because I am the president, i should be the role model. BLAMED IT ON MY LUCK he say. Maybe I am really unlucky, when i did not go to the class, she was not there. And when i went, she was there. But me myself was to blame too. Sorry to let down all the teachers, especially MR YANG :( he might also be in a very awkward position, having such a president. A big thanks to MR DESMOND TAN for talking to me, although we quarrelled before, I swear I teared up while talking to him just now. NEVER DID I EXPECT I WILL SEE THIS SIDE OF HIM. :) I just hope that on Monday, teachers wont look at feel feeling disgusted.

Thanks to all those who comforted me, sorry for showing my sucky attitude. ESP, Cassandra, Jirah, Shi Hui and Yusuf :)

HOPE :)